The rain is pouring outside and so is a piece of my heart... I love my country and I love my family so much but its just so so hard to think that in less than a week I have to leave them all for a life in a foreign place. The Bible says that "everything in our lives work for the good of those who love Christ", but why am I so sad? A part of me feels like things aren't going to be good that side and another part of me is expectant. I can't even possibly quiet frankly tell anyone right now what I'm going through. The things I have prayed for are all there , but why does it feel like some things , some questions are still lingering ?